Sep Feeling

Since I had been as old as now, I felt like I am working and living my life in vain. No achievements, no complete life. Wad I have is still single and a pc of fat lump the needs me to slowly torture it to a slimmer so as to stay healthier. Pathetic!

Well... writing cards for my 2 birthday buddies whose birthdays fell at 2 days apart, and celebrate for them later. Maybe is raining time, weathe so cooling, listening to the sentimental love songs makes my heart tender loving. Memories fell passed me to times when we are sec school times, the stupid me, the nerdy Bingbing and the blur blur Huili. Studying, dreaming and talking nonsense is our forte. Actually, I think I don't really like studying. That's why my results sucks. I only have a v. dilignt mind, that I need to study bcos it's a path to a better life, as I always know from young.. money is not easy to earn. U suffer earlier than in the later. Bcos life isn't always in a bed of roses.

Seeing both my buddies, 1 as a tai tai and living as a housewife with maid. The other also not bad bcos marriage looks fine to me. They are far more superior to me, despite I having the highest education. their life is complete. Me, no partner, no goals and no big prospects, let alone a good job. No principle. Looks pleasantly happy bcos I can watch my fav serial dramas, exercising becomes my goal and a lot of question marks to my future. Getting solemn and retarded in thinking. Old me already! Damn!